Acts 3:19 (NIV): “Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord.”
Really like Laura Story's song - Grace. My heart is so proud, my eyes are so unfocused. I see the things You do through me as great things I have done. And now You gently break me. Then lovingly You take me. And hold me as my Father. And mold me as my Maker. I ask You "How many times will You pick me up when I keep on letting You down?" And each time I will fall short of Your glory. How far will forgiveness abound? And You answer: "My child, I love you And as long as you're seeking My face. You'll walk in the power of My daily sufficient grace."
I couldn't remembr how far I left God behind through these two years and why I became bitterness and went astray from God. On the face of it, I am normal, go to worship and read bible, share with others. But behind the scenes, I couldn't remember how dark the things that I am doing. Not until the point, the behind the scene things were brought in front of others. The shamefulness and guilt in my heart were big enough to swallow me up, but God is really good, He sent many angels around me and start to bring me back.
But did I really repent from my sins? Anxious and worries still hitting me up. "What is your definition of "Hope"?" actually is what God wants to ask me but I just leave the signal behind and drilled into infinite fantansy of illusion. Stupid me! It reminded me of the course "Hope exploration", even though there seems no way, if we stay in faith, God will make a way. Hope is in Jesus! Hope is in God! Hope is one of the gifts that God sent to us! Faith, love, Hope build a strong foundation in Christianity, without any one of it, we will face the trial and stumble again!
Storm is not horrible, darkness is not horrible, but sin is really horrible! It will slowly crawling up until you lost sight of God! NIV: Acts 3:19 "Repent! then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord" No more faking, no more denial, honesty and love are the key for repent. Spreading love instead of fighting against our own "righteousness"- remember God's righteousness is always the one we are seeking and not our own "thinking".
I don't know if I will fall into the trap of bitterness and hartress again or not. But I choose to seek God's forgiveness and walk with Jesus again! Stay tuned in 2nd quarter of 2026. I am sure God's love can always bring us back! In Jesus' name, Amen!
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